My last, my final year of high school has officially ended. I finished all of my horrific IB exams, said my goodbyes, and graduated. Looking back on it, these past few weeks have felt like they lasted a lot longer than they actually have. And through all this, for it really was an ending, I did not cry once. It feels sort of odd, really. Of course, I don't cry naturally, but still, it seems like an odd thing to not have shed a tear. Though, the more I think about it, the more that strange feeling dies away. I will see my friends again, even if only over summer. We all parted with pretty words, but none of us intend for those to be the last words we will say to each other. That's what it all boils down to. I've come this far, and I'm not ready to put an end to my knowing them just yet. That may seem silly and naive, so let me clarify: I do not expect for all of us to see each other as often as we had, but I do believe that when we do see each other again we will be able to fall right back to where we left off. For this reason, I am not really sad.
What's more, I have done a lot of thinking lately ((a common theme for this blog; I have noticed)). As a result of this, I feel as if a large weight has been lifted from my shoulders. That is the glory of a good epiphany every now and again. It leaves you feeling refreshed, light as a feather, and as if you are ready to take on the world all at once. My epiphany was this: Life is mine, and it is my job for the time being to just keep living it. ((Remember that phrase?)) I discovered a while back who I want to be and as for this summer, it is time to start fully applying this 'new me' to my everyday life. As far as I'm concerned, I owe this to myself, and I don't have to worry about anything else. And that alone, removes a lot of stress and a lot of confusion I had been going through lately. A lot of which, I had been neglecting as of late, because of my dealing with the end of school.
With this, and taking everything into account, I believe I can finally answer the question I posed to you a couple posts back: "Where am I?" I am standing ((metaphorically of course)) at the edge of a new beginning. Things haven't truly stopped, nor have they began anew, yet. Life is slowing down, and entering into a small transition phase. Like the Phoenix, I will not flat reach a flat out ending but a bridge into a new beginning. And for the first time in a long time, I am truly excited just to live my life, and see where it takes me. This is what my summer will be dedicated to.
Now it's your turn. I asked you where you were, and I hope you really took the time to think about that. But for now, no matter where you decided you were, you have reached and opportunity to set something in motion; something maybe you've been thinking over for a long time, or maybe something you've been neglecting recently. This is your chance! What will you dedicate your summer to?
Signing off,
The Ace of Spades
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
~Story time! New Additions.~
Hola! Como esta? (Pleas do not actually answer...I probably won't know what you've said!) Haha. Now, continuing on! It has been some time since I have updated the bucket list part of The Bucket List. So, as promised (or at least hinted at) last time, I shall do that now! (Aren't you excited? I know I am!) However, this time I'm going to try something new! I know that a lot of the things on my bucket list may seem sort of random, but they aren't really, I assure you! The point being, everything on my list has a story behind it. Every entry has a special meaning, and an event that put it there. But then again, I believe that everything has a story behind it, and that life might be a lot more wonderful if we took the time to really search for that story... But alas! That may just be a blog for another day! Any-who, on to the list!
66. Learn to use medievel weaponry- This one is simple enough really. Over spring break (Such a long time ago! T-T) I was talking to a really close friend of mine, a friend who I have known since the third grade. And, as we hadn't really sat around and just talked in a long time...we sort of just started talking. About everything! One of those things ended up being her favorite teacher, who apparently has some degree/certificate that basically says that he is CERTIFIED to use medievel weaponry! Awesome right?!
67. Get my Doctorate Degree- This one is really a promise to myself (as some of the others on my list really are) than anything. I decided from the beginning that this list would be a culmination of things. 1. Super awesome things that you live a lifetime for. 2. Silly little things that I've always secretly wanted to do. 3. Promises to myself; things that I want for myself to accomplish. After breaking it down this way, that really began to put this whole project into perspective. So one day I started thinking about the 3rd category and suddenly realization hit me! And so, this one was added!
68. Ride in a Taxi- Have you ever read the play Pygmalion? Because I had to. And apparently taxis are a pretty big deal. After reading the fuss everyone in that play made over riding in a taxi (and going home to watch 'CashCab') I decided that I wanted to ride in one too! Think about it, and I guarantee that if you haven't ridden in one yet you will add it to your own bucket list! My theory: the 'want' to ride in a taxi must be contagious; just like laughter, and the swine flu!
69. Learn how to hot-wire a car- Now this one started as my friend and I strolled past one of the schools little golf-cart-things. We then got into this conversation about how we both wanted to take one for a joy ride! (Not that we ever would of course!) So we both casually glanced over an noted that they never leave the keys there. (huh...I wonder why?!) How could we (Though we really never would.) overcome this predicament? By knowing how to hot-wire a car! Which lead us to a conversation about that, and my next list item...
70. Learn how to pick a lock- Don't judge! Let's all be honest hear....who DOESN'T want to know how to pick a lock?! Now, again, I would never use this and #69 to do something illegal....I just want to know how! What's that you say? 'What's the point?' Well I will tell you! As we continued on in our conversation we realized something very important. That is this: THESE ARE INTEGRAL SKILLS FOR THE ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE! Laugh now, but when the earth is plagued by brain-eating-zombies and the only means of escape is a locked car with no keys....guess who makes it out alive!
Well that about wraps it up! I would love to know what you thought of this! Do you like the stories? Or do you honestly not give a crap?
Remember I will re-post my entire bucket list once I have hit 101 items! Hopefully that doesn't take to long! But, for now, let me know if you were curious about how any of the other items made there way onto my list! If you ask I may just have to answer!
Au revoir!
The Ace of Spades
66. Learn to use medievel weaponry- This one is simple enough really. Over spring break (Such a long time ago! T-T) I was talking to a really close friend of mine, a friend who I have known since the third grade. And, as we hadn't really sat around and just talked in a long time...we sort of just started talking. About everything! One of those things ended up being her favorite teacher, who apparently has some degree/certificate that basically says that he is CERTIFIED to use medievel weaponry! Awesome right?!
67. Get my Doctorate Degree- This one is really a promise to myself (as some of the others on my list really are) than anything. I decided from the beginning that this list would be a culmination of things. 1. Super awesome things that you live a lifetime for. 2. Silly little things that I've always secretly wanted to do. 3. Promises to myself; things that I want for myself to accomplish. After breaking it down this way, that really began to put this whole project into perspective. So one day I started thinking about the 3rd category and suddenly realization hit me! And so, this one was added!
68. Ride in a Taxi- Have you ever read the play Pygmalion? Because I had to. And apparently taxis are a pretty big deal. After reading the fuss everyone in that play made over riding in a taxi (and going home to watch 'CashCab') I decided that I wanted to ride in one too! Think about it, and I guarantee that if you haven't ridden in one yet you will add it to your own bucket list! My theory: the 'want' to ride in a taxi must be contagious; just like laughter, and the swine flu!
69. Learn how to hot-wire a car- Now this one started as my friend and I strolled past one of the schools little golf-cart-things. We then got into this conversation about how we both wanted to take one for a joy ride! (Not that we ever would of course!) So we both casually glanced over an noted that they never leave the keys there. (huh...I wonder why?!) How could we (Though we really never would.) overcome this predicament? By knowing how to hot-wire a car! Which lead us to a conversation about that, and my next list item...
70. Learn how to pick a lock- Don't judge! Let's all be honest hear....who DOESN'T want to know how to pick a lock?! Now, again, I would never use this and #69 to do something illegal....I just want to know how! What's that you say? 'What's the point?' Well I will tell you! As we continued on in our conversation we realized something very important. That is this: THESE ARE INTEGRAL SKILLS FOR THE ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE! Laugh now, but when the earth is plagued by brain-eating-zombies and the only means of escape is a locked car with no keys....guess who makes it out alive!
Well that about wraps it up! I would love to know what you thought of this! Do you like the stories? Or do you honestly not give a crap?
Remember I will re-post my entire bucket list once I have hit 101 items! Hopefully that doesn't take to long! But, for now, let me know if you were curious about how any of the other items made there way onto my list! If you ask I may just have to answer!
Au revoir!
The Ace of Spades
Saturday, May 7, 2011
~Some time later! Where am I?~
Hello all! I do realize that I have not been the good little blogger I had every intention of being. And by this I mean that I have not posted in a month. (...and a day...But hey, who's counting?) I would like to apologize for me leave of absence, though I don't really have any specific reasons for it. So to recap: Yes, it has been a long time, I'm sorry, and I'm sure you all missed me terribly! (Right?!) Shall me move on?
Recently I have done a lot of thinking about my life. (There's a shocker. I mean this entire blog is only about life!) Mostly I've been trying to figure out where I am at. Where I'm going. Who's going with me. And, who I will be saying good bye to. All of this could be the result of graduation which is now rearing its ugly little head. But (spoiler alert!) it wasn't. It was all because someone had told me this past week that we were at "the beginning of the end." Now, this isn't and unusual comment by any means. But it's not something that can be carelessly brushed aside either! I am accepted into an awesome college that I can't wait to attend (and have been finalizing things regarding it) and yet at the same time I am still winding down the year rather solemnly.
So here I pose my question: Am I at the beginning of the end, or the end of the beginning? It's all very odd if you think about it, and not that easy to answer either. After all people make such big fusses about things like beginnings and endings. We see this in stories (Once upon a time...the end!) and even when mapping out our lives. Yet could it be (in the paradoxical norm of the universe) that a beginning and an end are interchangeable names that we give things which we have no other means of describing? So many questions and no possible means of answering them! And yet all of that only leads me to another question: Where am I?
So now I’m going to ask you the same thing. (Mwahaha! I’m making you think!) Where are you? Right now, as you sit and read this. Where are you in the grand scheme of your life? If you really think about it, you may be surprised at what you find out.
(To end in a note –or maybe a preview?-! My next update will feature some additions to my bucket list, including a story behind how they each made it there –I want to start doing this for every new addition- because everything has a story behind it!)
Recently I have done a lot of thinking about my life. (There's a shocker. I mean this entire blog is only about life!) Mostly I've been trying to figure out where I am at. Where I'm going. Who's going with me. And, who I will be saying good bye to. All of this could be the result of graduation which is now rearing its ugly little head. But (spoiler alert!) it wasn't. It was all because someone had told me this past week that we were at "the beginning of the end." Now, this isn't and unusual comment by any means. But it's not something that can be carelessly brushed aside either! I am accepted into an awesome college that I can't wait to attend (and have been finalizing things regarding it) and yet at the same time I am still winding down the year rather solemnly.
So here I pose my question: Am I at the beginning of the end, or the end of the beginning? It's all very odd if you think about it, and not that easy to answer either. After all people make such big fusses about things like beginnings and endings. We see this in stories (Once upon a time...the end!) and even when mapping out our lives. Yet could it be (in the paradoxical norm of the universe) that a beginning and an end are interchangeable names that we give things which we have no other means of describing? So many questions and no possible means of answering them! And yet all of that only leads me to another question: Where am I?
So now I’m going to ask you the same thing. (Mwahaha! I’m making you think!) Where are you? Right now, as you sit and read this. Where are you in the grand scheme of your life? If you really think about it, you may be surprised at what you find out.
(To end in a note –or maybe a preview?-! My next update will feature some additions to my bucket list, including a story behind how they each made it there –I want to start doing this for every new addition- because everything has a story behind it!)
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