So I do recognize, that yet again it seems that i have neglected my blog oh lovely followers! ( :( )
I assure you however, that this is only partly the case! ((Not much better right?)) It's not that I've stopped blogging, it's simply that I've been out and about for the past month or so. Between my special graduation trip to Hawaii, to house sitting ((with very limited internet I might add!)), to concerting, to my upcoming trip to California ((by upcoming I mean that I am leaving at about 3a.m. tomorrow morning (-_-U))) I simply haven't gotten that much time to sit and reflect and write my blog as I have become so fond of doing!
But, I am here for now, and that's really all that matters right?! Regardless of your answer to that semi-question it's time to move on to the real point of this post! ((So I'm not just going to sit around trying to excuse my absence?! Shocking!))
All of my traveling and adventuring lately has lead me to realize something very, very important about my life, and yours too for that matter! Life is a journey, and it's time everyone stopped fighting that! Yeah, you see that one message thrown around all the time in movies. So? Movies -in my own personal opinion- one of the last real connections to true magic we have left. ((Mini rant now officially over.))
Look around you every once in a while, and all you'll see is people speeding past you, heads downturned, oblivious to what's going on at that one moment in time. These are destination-people. People who can't wait to get to the 'end goal'. Don't get me wrong, that drive and motivation is definitely a good thing -this is coming from a girl who'll just be starting a 10 year journey to her Doctorate degree- but letting that 'end goal' consume you to the point where you can no longer see everything that's happening around you is not a good thing!
There really is so much that you are missing if you ignore the journey of it all. I'm not going to say that every moment is wonderful and beautiful along the way, because let’s face it, that's nonsense. Sometimes the journey is difficult; sometimes the path at hand is dark and treacherous; sometimes it’s easier to shut your eyes to journey itself and just look to the destination. Yet, even when the journey gets like this, I firmly believe that you need to keep your eyes open to it, because that's how you learn and -more importantly- live. As far as beauty goes, it's all around you, it's entwined within the fabric of life itself, but it's not always going to come to you. You have to seek it out. When it comes down to it, it's your job to find the beauty in things. Neither of these two things are easy, and I'll be the first to admit it. I've gotten used to being able to keep my eyes opened to the darker parts of Life's path, it's something I'm pretty good at. But, this skill has come at a cost. Because of it, I find that sometimes it’s that much more difficult to find the beauty along the way; this I'm working on.
I am a journey-person, or at least I'm trying to be one. This is something all my recent, albeit blog-distracting, travels have made me realize. I want to be able to really, truly look at my life with eyes wide-open, and take advantage of every moment. Hawaii was more than just an expensive graduation trip my wonderful grandparents took me on. It was an adventure, and even more a time of healing. Not physical healing, because that would definitely put a damper on the whole 'Adventure!' thing, but a time of more...emotional healing. ((-you: TheAceOfSpades has a need for emotional healing?! O.o -me: I know right?!)) I will not describe what caused this need for my 'emotional healing' process, but I will say that it's something that I was not used to experiencing that had a deep (and surprising) effect on me. That being said it could all have been avoided if I closed my eyes to the Journey. In a similar manner, the whole thing -even after it happened- could have been overlooked and forgotten in the same way. I on the other hand, chose the much more difficult route. I looked at everything that happened, and I let myself learn from it. It hurt a lot, even the 'healing' aspect of it, but looking back on it, I know that it was worth it. It gave me a new insight into myself, and even into my own heart -a place that I find I know very little about.
So yeah, my point is that sometimes the path just plain sucks, and you -like so many others- can turn your head down, counting your footsteps, quickening your pace, just waiting until you reach the end. Or, you can go into-tunnel vision mode. You convince yourself that nothing around you matters but what is ahead. Sure, this can be beneficial, and sometimes what's around us is just too much to deal with, and this is the only way we really can deal with this part of the Path. Sometimes, no matter how strong you are this is all you can do to keep yourself going, and I understand that. It's not strength that is the limiting factor, but bravery. It takes true courage to lift up your head, to widen your vision, and try to take in all that is around you. If you do this, hopefully you will see that you’re not alone. Whether it be a lover, a family member, a true friend, or that person that seems almost like they were the missing part of your soul; they will provide the strength when you feel weak, they will help you find the beauty around you, they will help you seek out your true path, and they will keep you going when all you can see are shadows.
I will leave you with this: Life is a Journey. Those who can accept that will be able to truly live. Those who can only see the destination cannot, for in every life the last destination will always be death.
